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“Bless the Lord, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless
his holy name. Bless the Lord, o my soul, and forget not all his
benefits: Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy
diseases; Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth
thee with lovingkindess and tender mercies; Who satisfieth thy
mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle’s.”
Psalm 103: 1-5
King James Version
You may feel that nobody really understands how you feel and that
very well may be true, however I tell you on the Authority of the
Word of God that Jesus does understand! When it comes right down
to it, Jesus is the only one who can really see into the depths
of our heart and know exactly what is going on inside. He Loves
you and He cares about your every breath.
I am speaking from experience! I have suffered physical, sexual
and emotional abuse in my life and I can tell you that the emotional
abuse is the worse. The scars from the physical abuse eventually
fade away so that you don't really think about it that much, but
the emotional scars never go away!
We are to forgive people. God said that if we don't forgive others,
He will not forgive us but He understands that it will still hurt.
I had to give all the bitterness, hurt, confusion, suicidal thoughts
which I had every day for sixteen years, and the loneliness to
Jesus.
It did not happen over night but when I really opened my heart
to Jesus and made a heart commitment, not just a head and verbal
commitment, all of my past started to fade away. It took years
to do that and He is still in the process of working on me by reassuring
me, sometimes every minute of the day, how much He Loves me and
cares when it seems nobody else does.
God used a beloved Pastor who has been a dear
friend of mine for many years to show me how to open the door
to my heart emotionally. Pastor Byron said this statement in
a sermon once and when he said it I honestly thought the man
was crazy. He said, "If you
want to fly higher than a kite, start bragging on Jesus".
I started doing that. I began to tell everyone I came in contact
with how great Jesus is and how much He Loves you and desires to
heal your pain.
I remember once several years ago at a bus stop
while waiting for the bus, there was a man sitting there waiting
with me. I was still extremely afraid of people but I finally
started talking to him. I said, "Sir, do you know how much Jesus Loves you"?
He just looked at me and didn't say anything.
It scared me so I didn't say anything else. Five minutes later,
he began to weep and said, "Do you really think it is possible for Him to love
me since I have done so many terrible things in my life"?
I told him that if Jesus could love me as many crazy and mixed
up and sinful things that I had done, He can love anybody.
The bus was late and we talked for twenty minutes and I had the
privilege and honor of leading him to accept Jesus into his heart.
I have never seen or heard from that man again but I know that
Jesus has him in the Palm of His Hand, and that is all that we
can do for anyone. Give that person to Jesus and then get out of
His way and stop telling Him how to fix the situation.
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